I realize that the issues of molestation, rape and abortion are difficult ones. It was not my idea to write about, speak about and help girls and women deal with these painful issues!! It was completely God's idea and as a child of God, I try to always obey His words. I have been through very difficult, painful experiences in my own life. I found myself pregnant at the age of 14, because I could not say "No" to myself and chose to have sex. I put my boyfriend's feelings before my own. I did not want to disappoint him and I had a FEAR that he would leave me if I did not have sex with him. We were both very young and did not even understand true love in a mature way. I chose to have an abortion even though in my heart I really didn't want it, but I didn't want to say "No" to myself again and make myself carry the baby to term! I was determined that abortion would make my problem go away. It sure did make my baby go away. But, ultimately I traded my unborn baby for pain, loss, guilt, shame, condemnation!!! I hated myself for years for what I chose to do. I was so angry with God and the world. I did not want to go back to church and I just lashed out at anyone that I could. Hurting people hurt others! You can relate if you have ever seen a hurt animal on the side of the road that has been hit by a car, it runs off to hide from the world and if you go and try to touch it to help it, it will bite you!! People can reach out to help you from your hurts and wounds, but you will scare them away or push them away. You do not want to talk about "that". I know, I have been there. The good news and HOPE is that you should not and do not need to stay hurting, alone, suffering until you die. God died on the cross for this reason! He took the pain and shame so you don't have to. Please think about this and ask God for yourself if He wants to heal you! If you are still unsure, I can confirm as well as many others who will comment to this post. He does want to heal you! He has a HOPE and a FUTURE for you. Please read Jeremiah 29:11.
Praying for you!!!
Michelle Durand
Michelle,
ReplyDeleteYou are so right! When we hurt emotionally, we hurt others. Thought it might not be intentionally it still happens.
Your testimony always blesses me. Then, it so many ways it is like my own. I know tha ti carried the pain of my abortion for far too many years. Years that I wasted not being healed from my abortion. I am so thankful to for the healing that I found from Tears To Treasures. God was truly in the place and it still is.
For the readers who have not yet gotten healed. I promise you, you will never be the same. It is so worth the time and effort. Don't waste another day, call, text, or email Michelle. You will never regret that decision!
God Bless,
Jeanene